Chinese New Year has come and it is now the 13th day of the festival. This year I seem to be in no mood for any festive making.....heck! Guess this feeling has been with me since the economic crash last year badly affected my livelihood. I am under tremendous pressure these days. There just seems no way out of this mess so far.
Many well meaning family members and friends have asked me to be patient and to pray for divine intervention. Thank you to you all who have been by my side to keep my flagging spirits up. I just am so glad that at least through this all, my true family members and friends have given me hope.
My greatest worry is for my daughter's daily needs to be taken care of. She's only 6 this year. Her dad and I are fast approaching old age (he's 52 and I will be 49 soon) and if things don't look up, we may end up losing even this roof over our heads.
The Alpha Weekend Away is just a week away and I am just too bogged down with personal issues to even raise an ounce of enthusiasm for the Alpha Misnistry that I love so much. I find myself withdrawing further into myself and just no desire to go out and meet up with anyone.
So if I seem aloof or cold where I was once warm and happy, I apologise. I need to deal with these situations and find a better solution bfore I am even fit for human co-relations.
