Just another one of those nights!

It's one of those nights again! Frustrating! Sleep eludes me and I stare at the ceiling wondering why in heaven's name are the idiots living in the apartment upstairs banging away at 1, 2, 3am in the wee hours of morning???!!!! Wish I could sleep like Eddie and Angel! But then again, I have my own symphony orchestra in both of them! Their snoring is like a keeping me up too!

You'd think that after swimming and doing all the household chores I'd be able to sleep, but no, my eyes are still wide open. What in heaven's name is keeping me up I wonder? Ah well, might as well try and catch some zzzzzzzzzz before I really become an insomniac!

A Good CD

It is not everyday that I go out and get the chance to visit the CD stores. Well this afternoon was just one of those days and I found a wonderful album by Patrizio Buanne. He's gorgeous looking and sounds heavenly (ok ok coz.......u win!). He's such a looker! Hmmmmm......dreamy man! Go and get it! Ya won't regret it!

Musings

A friend asked me today, 'So how's motherhood? Still think it's great?'. For a moment there I just looked at her and thought she sounded so bloody smug! Yeah, she's still single and has the car, condo, latest handphone, notebook, PDA, etc, etc.....plus a shapely body of a 20 year old (she and I are the same age!) to boot! I was gritting my teeth as she just sat there sipping her tea (too bad it wasn't cynaide!) and proceeded to berate me......"Aiyo woman.....since you got that girl of yours, you've stopped living lah! Look at your hair, so lifeless and out of shape! See those dark rings.....blah....blah.....blah!" All these while my Angel sits quietly in her baby chair staring at this vision of sophistication and then back at me again.

As the so called friend droned on about how I was 'letting myself go to the boon docks', my mind went back to the day a year ago when Angel came into my life. I started comparing my 'drab and boring life, stuck at home with a snotty nosed baby demanding all my time' to the time when life was less demanding of my time, no whiney baby no diapers to change, no headaches or a messy house! Then it hit me so clear in the face that I laughed out loud and told this friend to keep quiet, that I would not trade places with her even if she offered me the world! She looked at me and asked me why even when I could see her incredulous face thinking I must be mad!

I told her that before I had Patricia and Angel I would have agreed with her. But children does change one's life whether we like it or not. I have never been happier changing diapers, wiping her snotty nose or cleaning her vomit off the floor! Life before was so meaningless! Wake up, go to work, go party/clubbing, go home bathe, sleep, day in day out. Weekends was endless rounds at shopping malls, drinking coffee at the happening coffee places, etc.

Needless to say she left the apartment in a huff and icily told me that "I'll call you sometime" to which I brightly responded, "Don't bother, till you learn manners!".......Angel was clapping her hands and waving bye bye like saying, "Get lost! Don't ever come round and talk to my mommy like that ever again!" I could not help feeling happy when I closed (no, I did not slam the door even though I wanted to!) the door in her face! Looks like I will be struck off her Christmas list for good! Who cares! All I need to be happy is right here with me! My baby girl and my husband are loads better than any materialistic thing!

Flu and Harry Potter book release

As luck would have it, the whole family was struck with the flu the day Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince was released! I got my copy of the book at 4.30pm on Saturday 16 July 2005 and managed to read up to Chapter 9 before the flu bug got to me! I got laid up in bed the whole of Sunday afternoon and the whole of yesterday together with Angeline (Her dad was the one who 'infected' us!) with a terrible head flu and could barely drag myself out of the bed let alone read! Thank goodness I have a wonderful and understanding sister who let me rest in her house after I had taken my medication. I was able to get up this morning and finished reading all 30 chapters of the book.....that too thanks to Angeline's napping undisturbed for hours!

The book is really not that SPECTACULAR as the last book. I dread thinking about the next and I think final instalment of the Harry Potter series! With all the hype this book cost, it was a real letdown......! Anticipation of a great story pick up from the last book was dashed within the 1st few chapters! But I won't spoil it for those who have yet to read the book. If you are a die hard fan of Harry Potter, then go and spend the RM99.90 (or RM89.90 that I paid!)! If you aren't then wait till your friend has finished, then borrow!

I have since fully recovered from my bout of flu but my darling Angeline and Eddie are still battling the bug so to speak! I do hope that the two of them will recover fast! Really tiring to run around after a 1 year 2 week old daughter who has a runny nose and crawls darn fast!

Of Durians, Coffee and Goodbyes

Recently I managed to sample some durians (2 whole fruits all to myself!) after more than 6 months of waiting.....still the durians I had on Wenesday night were not as tasty as the ones I had on Christmas Day last year. Now those I had last year were lovely! Pungent, aromatic, creamy, delicious and lip smacking! My poor baby Angeline was staring at me whilst I was enjoying and indulging myself tucking into the 2nd grade durians (who cares! still durians right???) and asking to taste some. But her dad said no durians for the wee one just yet!

Woke up this morning and suddenly had this crazy urge to just go out to the nearest Starbucks or Coffee Bean for a double shot of Expresso Con Pana! I tell you, if and when either one of those coffee places open up in Damansara Damai, you'd see me there for sure! It has been a long time since I last had a good, relaxed time out to indulge in my passion for coffee! I sure do miss my 'kopi kaki' like Cheng Sum, Lilly, Nelson, Andy, Tony, Angelia and YK. Wonder if they still have their 'coffee fix' every Fridays!

Come july 28 I will be saying 'goodbye' to a friend whom I've only known since 2002 but who has become a dear friend. He has brought me closer to God and he has always been there for me in times of sorrow, despair, joy and happiness. I know he's going away for only 4 years but then it's Rome for goodness sakes! That's far, man! When he comes back, he'll be known as Father Christopher Lee. Ah well, all's well that ends well! I am happy for my dear friend and he will always be my 'voice of sanity' and Angeline's direct line to God! Hahahahahaha! Go in peace Chris and may Jesus, Mary and Joseph be with you all the way! Will be losing another 'kopi kaki' for the next 4 years!

Another milestone breached

July 10 2005: Went to Jaya Jusco in Melaka (yup we were in Melaka for the weekend) and Angel had her ears pierced! Her father and I had decided that she would get her ears pierced after her 1st birthday. Her earlobes are still soft, so less pain! Eddie chose a pair of studs with peridot green stones (Not real ones lah!) and Angel cried only when the studs were shot into her lobes with the piercer gun! Her cries lasted only 2 seconds followed with an 'ooohhhh' when she saw her tear streaked face in the mirror! She stopped bawling after seeing how pretty she looked with the earstuds!

Poor baby was tired out with all the travelling! Slept all the way home from Ayer Keroh toll to the Dengkil R&R where we stopped so that we could use the loo and change her diapers. By the time we reached the apartment and settled down she was all pooped out! Travelling with a child sure has it's challenges but I am not complaining! Beats living out my life without a child! Yeah sure her whiney cries drives me batty, but to see her smiling at me early in the morning when she wakes up is reward enough.

Can't believe it is already a year since Angel became a part of the family! So much joy and smiles now, even my relationship with my mother-in-law has taken a turn for the better! Sometimes when God closes a door, He opens a window.........so maybe next time when tragedy hits, we should bear this statement in mind.

Till the next posting........shalom! God bless!

New car

Hello! Got the new car on Tuesday. Nothing great to shout about. A car is still a car! Gets us to our destination and a heck lot more convienient! At least now no more waiting for public transport!

Still recovering from the party. Never realized that it could be so energy draining just to be a good host! So many days later and I am still exhausted. Angel is just nicely recovering and she is loving her swimming sessions!

Sometimes I really marvel at how blessed I am! To have a wonderful understanding husband, 2 very beautiful daughters, a loving set of siblings and cousins, friends and most of all to have the good Lord Jesus guide bring to my life good and wonderful people and things. Much of the sadness when Patty died has dissapated but still once her birthday and the date of her death comes rolling by, I GO TO PIECES AGAIN! But I guess all the moms and dads who have lost loved ones would understand.

Birthday Party News and other good news

Saturday 2nd July 2005 I woke up early and excited for it was finally the day! Went out for breakfast with the family and got the 1st of many inane excuses given by some invited guests who said they could not make it even when they had confirmed attendance. By then I was immune to the insensitiveness of these people who just couldn't fathom what their cancellation was costing Eddie and me. No people, not monetary wise, just bitter disappointment at their so called 'something came up', 'have to work', etc.....but there were a few who never even called to say that they were not coming. Think of all the food prepared and would have been wasted! By golly! Some of these non showers were family members!

However, I am happy to say that the party was fun and the kiddies enjoyed themselves with the games planned by Estrel and Cindy. The MC, Saysoo did a good job of keeping the kiddies entertained whilst Eddie and I were rushing around trying to make sure we did not neglect anyone...tiring but fun! I was happy to meet up again with Karen and and Li Li. At last, I got to meet Andrea, Li Li's baby daughter who turned 1 in February 2005. She is really a beautiful girl and I am so glad to have met up with so many close and long time friends.

My Angeline enjoyed herself tremendously and her presents have filled 3 boxes now! Soon my spare room will have to be rearranged to accomodate all her stuff as there is barely any walking space in there! She loved all the attention showered on her and by 11pm that night she was already asleep. The whole of Sunday afternoon we all napped and totally rested. Angel is still catching up on her sleep!

Monday 4th July 2005: Angel's actual birthday. Spent the afternoon napping the poor baby! She was so tuckered out. Eddie came home and we took Angel down to the pool as a birthday treat for her. She loved the pool! She wasn't very impressed with the baby pool though. Started squealing with delight when Ed and I took her to the adult pool (of course she had her goggles and floaters on! We are not dumb!) for a while. She screamed with frustration when we got out of the pool and headed home and only calmed down when I promised her that I wouldn't hesitate to 'rotan' her if she didn't quit her caterwauling!

Got a sms from another friend (Ed's ex-colleague) that she had delivered a baby boy that evening of July 4th! Now her son and my Angel share the same date with a year in between them. How nice!

Tuesday 5th July 2005: Got the new car today. Went for a spin and ended up in 1Utama where we bought another swimsuit and a towelling robe for Angel. She was all excited with the suit but gave the new car a big yawn. Tomorrow we will take Angel for her next swim in her new duds!

Thanks to all who made the effort to attend the party and all the gifts given....most important is thanks for reaffirming that there are responsible and fun loving people out there! Cheerio for now!